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happy 1.1.2011 to all

so long 2010! thank you god for the year that ended, it's a good year. having hardships,troubles, fun moments, enjoyment. happiness. 

thank you for the never ending blessings to me and for all, the chances that you've given, taken or forsaken. 

thank you for everything. 

so it's 2011 now. even though i really don't believe in new year's resolution, (for i believe that everyday is a new year, a new chance to make resolutions. i believe in daily renewal end resolution.) rewinding my days as i was a child. i'm making a new one.

first, i will be naming my blog in numbers, to take track with my blog for the whole year maybe. i also decided to make my blog and everything to be put to order. the same tags will be used (arkiboyblog, arkiboykowts, arkiboyshits) to segregate my posts.

second, i will be returning to my old type of blog, the boring-that-no-one-will-read-because-it's-too-long kind of blog. the blog that only a person capable of reading long stories will appreciate and also boring. to take considerations of your dashes, i will be  posting the next blogs in another site and only the link will be posted in your dashes. 

so why do this? because i'm accustomed to make short blogs here in tumblr, a stubborn one that made me forgot my one style of blogging that i left in multiply and live journal. having several blogs aren't that easy to handle specially when you have a friggin tight schedule. and now i realized that i am off my topic. which is making my new year's resolution. so here it is.

my new year's resolution.

-to stop being stubborn. 

i really need to be industrious in making my plates, cleaning up my room, grooming myself,  practice drawing, reading, blogging, and everything that i wanted to. 

- (with the partner of not being stubborn) to be responsible.

in everything that i say that i will do, in the tasks that has been appointed to me, to everything that i am committed to. this is not only for me but for that consideration that a certain person or group of people that had trust in me that i will do it. that i can do it. i don't want to let people down anymore, i need to be strong. 

-(accompanied by being responsible) to shut up and do things.

i really wanted to be silent at times and just observe people, but lately, i became so carefree. talking talking talking, an all-bark-no-bite kind of guy. this year, i need to make remedy for everything that i've screwed last year. and this is the purpose of this blog. to guide me to what i needed to change this year.

-lastly, less thinking (not the type of thinking logically but thinking negative stuffs) 

maybe this is because i am stubborn, my mind has a life of it's own, idle times made my mind wonder around freely and thinking of negative stuffs which is a really bad habit. thinking that someone might have an accident or something, a paranoid weird way of thinking. i really need to be an optimist this year. optimist in everything, tackling one day at a time. 

4 things that i wish/i wanted to do/i will do this year. they say that the secret in having a successful resolution is to have a lesser list of things making it compact and have one's heart and mind to focus in achieving it.

so that's all. smiles, be positive, be happy this year. thanks if you manage to read until this. godbless you.

shapeshift

i’m a blogger, well it think that i am a blogger. but nowadays from what is supposed to be helping me is now destroying me bit by bit. i like to tell stories, to mingle and have a chat with others, to know people a bit deeper than that anyone see’s in him *slash her. 

So i tried social networking and blogging sites, to know more about people and to tell them who i really am. i just can’t help it, for i am curious about everything, about the world, about people, anything under the sun. i became lighter, and it helped me to think about anything a lot more. 

but the problem now is, i don’t know, for these past months, i had indulged myself in this what you so called paranoia. i think too much about everything and most of the people. social networking and blogging became an addiction. i check my facebook, tumblr, and multiply every now and then and it drained my time. everything became out of line. happiness cannot be found in this.

i didn’t mention this but i think, everyday is a new year. every date has it’s counter part last year, so if you think about it, everyday is a new year and a new day as well. so you can make you new year’s resolution everyday. And I am making one today. it can’t wait, i have to do this now for now is the best time for this. 

the catch is, i need to have my own discipline in doing things, for that, i am making my schedule for everyday. not the hourly-makes you mechanical-type of schedule but a simple one. and i want to follow it rigorously.

• exercise, jogging early in the morning. 

(as a student of architecture, often i don’t have enough time to have it done because of plates. i want to be a healthy person inside and out. i’ve done it last summer, why can’t i have it done now.)

• checking mail/computer will be reduced. 

(i plan to have it checked maybe before i go to sleep. i need to reduce the time spent in the front of the computer so that i can do other  things that are more productive than that.)

this is my first step. maybe when you read this, you might think that “This would be so damn easy if i’ll have to do it myself”. it’s alright to think about it that way, but hell, this will be hard if you turn you’re lifestyle to a lazy as shit and carefree one like i have done mine. 

i didn’t submitted my plate in design which has the consequence of failing in the preliminaries so i have to catch up to my classmates. i need to change my lifestyle not only for myself. so this is a shapeshift.

12-10-2010:reminder o paalala para sa iyo.

alas kwatro ng umaga. ito na yung araw na binanggit ko sa isa kong blog. ito na yung hagupit nung isa kong professor. 

design, ang tagal kong magisip ng floor plan, mahilig pumetix, kung ano anong shit ang ginagawa at ito na nga yung consequence. just 12 hours away in passing that plate. malayo pa sa posibilidad yung gawa ko. alam kong may time pa ako para makahabol para sa deadline, pero mas binigyan ko ng halaga itong log na to. bakit? kasi gumugulo na yung utak ko, stressed na ako masakit ang likod, masakit ang ulo. nagkukumahog na humabol at habulin ang kailangang habulin. 

nahihiya ako sa tag team ko na itago natin sa initials na Jsp. isang babae na ubod ng sipag, lately ko lang nalaman na ganun pala talaga siya. at ako ang kanyang complete opposite, isang easy go lucky na lalaki, maingay at parang barya. siya, tahimik, pero gumagawa. siya ay perang papel at ako ay hamak na piso, barya na nagmamayabang sa sarili na hindi makakabuo ng isang libo kapag wala ako. pero barya lang ako, isang makalansing na barya. parang langaw na dumapo sa ulo ng isang giraffe, kala mo kung sinong magaling. langaw lang naman sa lipunan.

hindi ito self pity sa pagcocompare ko sa tagteam ko na si Jsp. pero isang kaldag sa akin ng mundo, na nagkaroon lang ako ng konting alam, kala mo kung sino nang magaling. 

SHIT! lumaki ulo ko dahil sa mga pangyayari last semester. dahil sa pagiging main contender at presidente ng klase. dahil ako ay nakakakuha ng pinakamataas na grado sa mga major subjects ko, kala ko kung sino na akong magaling. dahil sa ako ang tanungan ng mga kaclase ko para sa kung ano yung mga suggestions ko para sa plates ng iba. at ang pagtawag sa akin na ako ay imba, magaling, master, idol at kung ano ano pang papuri.

aba'y ISA TALAGA AKONG SHIT! kapal ng mukha ko. kapal ng mukha ko para umastang malupet, pero wala namang pinapatunayan. at ngayon, wala talaga akong mapatunayan. 

"hard work beats talent if talent doesn't work hard."

ako ngayon yung kuneho sa laban namin ni pagong, yung bangaw na nasa ulo ng giraffe, si tipaklong sa tipaklong at ang langgam. 

sa mga panahong ito, ito na yung patunay na hindi ako imba, hindi ako idol, master o kung anong shit ang tawag sa akin ng ibang tao. isa akong normal na estudyante ng architecture, wala pa akong alam, wala akong dapat ipagmagaling dahil maraming mas magaling sa akin. na kaya akong ilampaso sa saglitang oras lang. marami pa akong kakaining kanin. 

hindi pa ako nawawalan ng pag-asa na makahabol. at wag ka na rin munang magrereklamo na dapat iyon yung ginagawa ko imbis na magblog ako dito. hindi pa ako sumusuko. pero ito yung mga panahon na nakakuha ako ng lesson sa dulo ng kwento. 

at pwede kong iapply dahil naranasan kong mabigo. 

sa tag team kong malupit! keep up the good work.