Saturday, October 30, 2010

so, what the happenings?

it’s approximately halfway through the semestral break. November 08, 2010 is the start of the second semester. 

I purposely detached myself from my friends, not only because the schedule that i will have if i am with them will be crappy for me but also to test myself and to change myself. Last sem is a good semester, until the finals where it started to turn upside down. i became relaxed and it showed the down side of me. the part where it showed that i have no consistency in doing things and that my friends, i think, is not a good trait.

My mission this coming semester is push my limits to have high grades, to improve what i have. I need to grow not only as a student but also as a human being. Also in my experiences, I am just all bark no bite boy, telling something and then have the tendency to eat them. I want also to change that part of me. I need to be serious this time. 

But still, anyone can come at me when they need help, I’ll just need to take away those bad habits of mine. 

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

poging poging pareng idol ham! ito yung sabaw, wala pa yung espada!

his name is Steven Anthony Ham also known as tonton. a Bright and talented student of architecture in Adamson University. a jolly one, and has his own cracks every once in a while. also a musician, he plays the drums with his band mates he’s a good drummer even though i’ve never seen him play for once. i can tell this because he gives me tips on how to play drums. he is an awesome illustrator for he can draw gundams without looking or copying, and he also can draw anime and those are sometimes our activity when in classroom or in even when we loiter around in the library. 

i know that can’t judge him because i didn’t have a long time to linger with him, but those times, i found friendship in him. maybe i’m not the best, but still we had bonds. we accept each other’s talents very well, we had our laughs in other’s clumsiness. he don’t show his downside to others. all are good times even in bad times.

at first, it’s just blurry eyes, then all of a sudden, he’s in the hospital. it’s roughly a month and a half, first diagnosed with hydrocephalus, then brain cancer. he’s a strong guy. but the friend that i knew, he’s not even close to what i saw when we visited him in the hospital. he hardly remembered me, but still his brother said that he still can crack some jokes in the first days. but those are nothing compared to what blows life did to his family, those events that his brother(philip) narrated on what he and his brother gone through. philip (tonton’s brother) is really a symbol of strength, an admirable figure of being the oldest brother of three.

i only visited him twice. those times, with friends and classmates. all of the jolly, clumsy part of me, just went down in a whim. i’m not good dealing with these kinds of things. it’s ok, maybe that i’ll endure anything but letting my friends and family suffer, i’ll break as fast as the lightning strikes. after those, only a little news reached me cause i lost my cellphone, but thanks to my friends, i receive news every once in a while.  first, it’s improving, then worst.

he died october 25,2010, roughly 4 pm. many people love him. he won’t hurt anymore, even though he has left us. he’ll always be a part of those who love him. the laughs, the talent, he’s truly a unique person that god created. you’ll always be in us, you had move on, and though it hurts, we must to. we’ll surely miss you. 

his name is Steven Anthony Ham also known as tonton. a Bright and talented student. a jolly one, and has his own cracks every once in a while. also a musician, he plays the drums. a friend , a brother. maybe you just finished what you needed and intended to do in this world. rest well my friend. see you, until next time.

Monday, October 25, 2010

10/25/2010




dislodging a bike and cleaning a dirty pc

again. looooooong time before i post

the reason is because of tumblr. it allows me to have many mini posts as possible, parang hypocrite nga ako eh. nakakainis. it's maybe because, mas maraming nagbabasa dun. maybe i'm just a jerk who wants to be heard and now i think it's unfair that i'm not posting here as much as in tumblr. napansin ko lang kasi now a days, multiply is slowly being an online market. seriously, kaya siguro ako tinamad magblog dito. i can't fully explain myself kung bakit ako palipat lipat ng blogging site. dati sa livejournal, sa multiply, tumblr. maybe now i can justify.

isa akong batang kulang sa pansin. 

uhmm, pero sa ngayon, parang hindi ko magawang maging emo/malungkot ngayon. ang saya ko, maybe, just maybe, nakita ko na yung babae na magbibigay kulay sa black and white kong mundo, ilaw sa isang malungkot na kwarto. hindi pa ata kami. pero nakakakilig kahit papaano. ugggghhhh. so ok kinikilig ako. hahahaha. i'm happy, beyond words can explain.