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pasan

Naglalakbay sa gitna ng dalampasigan
Minamasdan ang alon
Na humahampas sa nakaraan

Umihip ang hangin
Sa langit ako’y napatingin
Ulap ay sadyang kaydilim
Tila yata may bagyong parating
Bakit ka lumuluha?
Bakit nagtataka?
Akala mo ba, ika’y iniwan na?

Hindi, pasan kita
Hindi mo ba nakikita
Hindi ka na, sa akin ay luluha pa

Nasaan na ang tapang
At lakas ng ‘yong loob
Ngayo’y karuwagan na lang ba
Ang iyong sagot

Umihip ang hangin
Sa langit ako’y napatingin
Ulap ay sadyang kaydilim
Tila yata may bagyong parating
Bakit ka lumuluha?
Bakit nagtataka?
Akala mo ba, ika’y iniwan na?

Hindi, pasan kita
Hindi mo ba nakikita
Hindi ka na, sa akin ay luluha pa

Hindi ko naman hangad
Ang anumang bagay sa mundo
Ang tanging hinihiling ko lamang
Ay yakapin mo

At ngayon, pasan kita
Ngayon mo na makikita
Hindi ka na, sa akin ay luluha pa

At ngayon, pasan kita
Ngayon mo na makikita
Hindi ka na, sa akin ay luluha pa

sketch

all i wish. that more people will understand the real me
    all i crave. acceptance like anyone else
all i cared. others instead of me
    all i dreamed. a skill of flight to loosen ends, a simple form of escape

a simple dream. all is good; no worries
   a wish. never been granted as always and forever
a time. i say sorry for those whom i have hurt in the things that i say
a chance. to dream that someday you will succeed

this time. no one accepts who i am
this place. a sanctuary where in i can be myself
this words. not coming from my nostrils but sincerely from inside
this body. in time i will depart but hoping to born a simple memory

hatred. a feeling that no one can escape from
    love. everybody is seeking, a glance from everybody's eyes
purity. even how clean, no body ever achieved.
    imagination. lack in everybody, too old to dream.

heart. always to be in someone else's
mind. it's a tool and neither of anybody's proper usage
hands. even so clean is full of dirt and when it's dirty, cleanliness achieved
eyes. defy everything present.

prospect. given by people, not everyone realizes
dream. neither day or night. gives something that some humans cannot achieve.
sound. brave nor coward. senseless and truthful
life. created. short hence long. not happy but not sad

work. praying for living. created of the ended
drawing. can't words, no expression.
writing. peace more than one's head
walking. more than places to see but something hidden within.

ako

staring off... hindi ko alam kung ano ang ilalagay ko ngayon sa blog pero merong certain urge to blog. kanina pa umaandar ang utak ko, ang daming iniisip tungkol sa mga bagay na pang-adik.

life, has it's own temptations. weird because it's signifies the "human-ness" of a person. kadalasan din na pangtakas ito sa mga bagay na nagawa mong mali. many people say  "pasensya na, tao lang"  pag natetempt at nagkakamali. that's the a realization in life nalagi nating tinatakasan. ang pagkakamali. many people play the roles of the so called "greater good". so what are the chances for doing such thing. basically i don't know, but they are willing to risk anyones life in jeopardy just to prove that it is for the "greater good", but in the end it lands to a reality that they are doing it for their own selfish ambitions. if life ends, where is someone going to go, purgatory, heaven, hell or in some place beyond human imagination. well, one things for sure. when i go to a place like that someday, i want to meet the divine creator. in this life. i've got so many questions to ask. i not need arguement but a talk. medyo batas ang pagkaka-construct ng words pero. it will make it a lot easier. hindi ako bossy. medyo nahihirapan lang talaga akong magexpress.

life is supposed to be life, but many makes it too hard to live in, many are pressuring themselves to work, therefore, creating money as there one true love. people now a days are making things too complicated but when they just, look more closely, it's too deng easy... well as time passes, much little people only realize that. life is supposed to be fun, and yet many people resist to be fun. just not everybody notices it. when everybody is hot headed and to stubborn to listen, all they do is to calm down cause being such doesn't give you any good.

why do i do this. why do i blog. i simply answer that..."i don't know".... when any other is fund of playing, studying, busting themselves on gym, cigars, and drinking. i am here, typing. stupid isn't it? pang gago lang... well everything has it's own reason at kadalasang kong sinasabi eh, kanya kanya lang talaga yan. this is what i am fund to do, i like to draw, like to think and i like to write. nanonood din ako ng tv , naglalaro pero dito lang talaga ako napapalagay.

all is talking about figures, grades etc. then they argue and they fight if some don't achieve what they want for them. intelligence is divided in many parts. kanya-kanyang katalinuhan yan. and sometimes passion makes it more better. many don't know that i write, as always many are judging me that i've got no substance. taong kanto. well i admit that, na talagang mukha akong taong kanto, nagmumura ako, maligalig, sabog, at hindi pumoporma. i speak na i am simple as eveybody sees. mas gusto kong simple ang lahat. noworries. and maybe that's the reason why many misunderstood me. hahaha, tagal ko nang alam na misunderstood ako pero ngayon ko lang nalaman kung bakit. sabog talga. well i am too stubborn. hahaha... sabog talaga. well may mga bagay akong hindi nagugustuhan pero ayus lang, kinakaya naman, mas maginhawa ang aking pakiramdam ngayon.

i've got a sketch pad, and not everyone is knowing it, kulangot. hahaha. tinatago ko kasi at lagi kong daladala ang kulangot na yon. pero hindi lang mga drawing ang laman nun kung hindi isa pang blog na laman ang extremities ko raised to 2. pero ayus naman, hindi lahat ang nakakaalam at hindi lahat ang nakapagbuklat nun. wala pang lima ang nakakalam nun. i've got a certain feeling that something is going to end. just don' t know what that is.

i am just contented not as everybody is. napakasimple lang ng mga pangarap ko. and some of it is not for myself but some common good. . . i live in so much virtues, that's why i am mostly staring through thin air.

What Aldren Thomas Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality.You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

just finished a day

a day started as the sun rose. do the scheduled tasks. everything.

as always, people stab me for the things that they want for me. hating this so much want me to explode. i've got again my composture in thinking about things. atleast i am almost back.

the end of my sched in school. just, i felt a certain hapiness because at last after i got long hours of waiting for what's going to happen in my phil history grade. renz just poped up...

and now...


i don't know what i am going to put in here...

sa susunod na lang kapag hindi na ako gaanong sabog.

ash wednesday.

kakadating lang sa school. sobrang traffic at nakakaasar, pagod ka na nga tapos trapik pa tapos gutom ka pa... san ka pa. well kaya naman ako ginabi eh dahil 5:30 nag start yung mass tapos natapos ng 6:30  dahil sa sobrang daming tao ang naglalabas masok sa church para mag paabo sa noo. ayus.! kaya ayun nandito ako sa computer shop dahil gagawa pa ako ng reaction paper para sa logic... just justify kung pwede na "a person will love humanity but hate a single person" pwede nga ba...

just tiring pero sulit sa laugh trip. inireto ni mam erpelo si jemil kay carmela na crush naman ni... tapos. ayun . sunod sunod na. sulet talaga. pagkatapos ng p.e. nagpunta na kami sa church na ang sabi eh 5 daw ang umpisa ng mass... as usual filipino time nga naman. 5:30 nag simula. ang tagal naming nakatayo, buong mass dahil puno na ang simbahan... parang bus, tayuan.

may iniwan na quote si father advincula... the priest na nasa giyera sa iraq dati. well. here it goes.

"if only some people live simply... it will let others simply live..."

which i think eh tama naman. no worries. so ayun nga.

pagod ang araw pero tuloy parin ang pag andar ng utak ko. hindi naman pinipilit pero gusto lang mag isip. sabogaloids nga ako...


many judge people. give them a chance to redeem themselves. pag umulit pa, hahaha... bahala ka sa buhay mo. tulad ko, magulo ako pero walng sense... wala talagang silbe...



kailangan ko na nag gumawa ng reflection paper.


may exam pa sa physics bukas.



meron akong pangarap... ang tumulog at hindi na gumising sa magandang panaginip...






but there's just one thing to remember..
















you had been given a life (hindi ko alam kung tama yung gramming)
so try to live so hard... try to be happy....

life is not a bus that if you missed you can catch the other one...








this only ride once... so live as much as possible...





don't be afraid to live... and don't be afraid to be happy...






ah yeh!

conversation ni chiz habang i.c.

cant express myself fully in the midst of other people, some tried to see what is inside that sketch pad that i am working on... and luckily they failed.

just isolating myself a bit but from time to time i am still checking out.

there are still many people who are judging me, i hate it. i am not good at judging at things even for a single person. so in that part i am not judging people.

at times i hate this life, i live almost freely in this space that i am typing this things, but after this, but to my own frigging life.

ang sama ng pakiramdam ko pero wala akong sakit. mahirap talagang iexplain ang ibang mga bagay. actions speak louder than words. mahirap lang talaga na gumagawa ka ng mga bagay na hindi mo gusto at kapag pumalya kasalanan mo pa. hindi nman ako nagpapakaemo pero eto ako ngayon. siguro dahil ito dun sa teenage crisis, crisis that parents should be attending and helping their son. haay naku...

can't do things that i want
can't cry
can't be stubborn
and all that i will do
pretend and burn myself to the things that people push me to.

all are looking at figures. looking at the future, preparing for it.

all prepare for hapiness for the future.

but then i ask someone, a seatmate about that. in time of copying note in calculus

"ei gusto mo ba yung ginagawa mo ngayon, gusto mo yung course mo"

seatmate answers in an unsecure tone "oo, bakit."

"bakit ka nag aaral ng e.c.e kung mas gusto mo na mag culinary arts?"

he answered now in a proud voice "naghahanda ako para sa kinabukasan ko, future na magiging magaan ang lahat. para maganda ang kita. at para sa future eh relax na lang ako."

napaisip ako ngayon,. tapos

"eh paano kung sabihin natin na hindi ka umabot sa future, yung pinaghahandaan mo?"

"eh bakit mo iniisip na mamamatay ka na? baliw ka talaga"

sabi ko "ipinapalagay ko nga na 'paano nga' kung hindi ka umabot sa future, bakit ang ibang tao, hindi naman nila alam na mamamatay na sila ah, naaksidente. wala na. hindi natin maaalis na baka bukas eh patay ka na diba, eh di hindi ka na naging masaya dahil ang iniiisip mo eh yung kita mo sa future?"

ngumiti na lang siya tapos, nakinig na sa prof na nagdidiscuss ng polar area. naramdaman ko na parang wala ata siyang maisagot kaya kumopya na lang ako ng notes. hindi ko alam kung nagiging pessimistic na ako pero sa tingin ko, hindi naman, may times siguro... hindi ko din alam basta thoughts and imaginations eh madaling dumadating sa akin, no one can force thoughts out of his/her mind.

nagdaan ang araw, sumikat ang araw, lumubog. tulad ng tao na pwedeng mawala sa isang iglap. maraming posibilidad. always got a choice, choice kung kelan ka magiging masaya.

people always burn themselves to money, power, and somethings. may mga hindi kumakain para makabili ng gustong bilhin. but then some people just forget how to become people. forget things that make them human. some becoming selfish and being inhuman. looking at looks, being greedy, materialistic and many more. forgeting the essence of life.

ang hirap talagang iexpress ang sarili. well, figures or not, medyo uso na rin ang pagtingin ng figures, grades to achievements. but then.

figures will give you... and improve you to...

a question that i can't express the answer.

it's up to you

three little birds.

hindi ko alam ang ilalagay ko dito... so long since the last time i blog, masyadong busy and masyado din maraming time na nagiisip... mahirap in the sense na crowded na yung utak mo. just having a hard time in figuring stuffs..

mahirap din kasi lagi na ring nabubulilyaso ang mga plano... it stays as a plan because of some bad luck... masyado lang siguro akong maswerte. perhaps ako na nga lang ang nakakaintindi sa sarili ko, pero sometimes i just to accept the fact na talagang bibihira lang ang mga taong makakaintindi sa akin. and that selected people, helps, i appreciate the efforts. pero mahirap lang talagang i explain, it helps but i think the problem is much bigger, all i can do is to stop and think about facts...

burning  myself... bad idea.. well. parang ang bilis ng january pero parang ang tagal din. then, it ended badly... at para talagang ang sama sama ng taon ko... siguro nasa akin ang choice kung ano ang mangyayari ...

before na confine si tito ponso sa hospital, before magend ang january gusto ko sanang pumunta, pero nagkaroon kami ng exam, kaasar... well, gusto ko sana siyang makita o makausap. well, the week is somewhat happy. as always, hapi sa loob ng skul pagdating sa labas... hindi ko na alam,., and now, im down in the midst of nowhere. i don't know kung kailan ito magiging maayos... pero sana... balang araw

life is an equilibrium, at times unexpectable and sometimes not. just hard. but then, to be happy it must be in the middle, you must not forget the things you need to do... responsibility... ang leisures in life... must fall down in the middle. sometimes, you just wish that things will end when you sleep, but then you woke upthe very next day. you expect something. but then you achieve nothing even if it required you hard work. life is sometimes cruel, in the sense that many people wanted to control you. friendship is very hard to earn, hapiness too is just the same. sometimes, you must sacrifice something, time will come that you will know what your efforts carried you. sometimes,  you want to see someone, then you've got to choose. then, you wont see him in a long time, but for sure you will see that person. my prayers are yours. hope that i will see all of you in due time, lola edad, tito carding, tito ponso. im just now, down in midst of nowhere. because i didn't grab the opportunity. well. hope that someday i will see you all. sana, magkitakita tayo... the lost time i didn'y spend, the time that i choose the wrong thing, miserable from the start of the year... now... it's much more miserable than ever...

Alfonso Ricohermoso (tito ponso)
August 15, 1939
January 30, 2008


my prayers are yours, i hope that one day we'll talk as long as time gives....

three little birds- bobmarley

Dont worry about a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin: dont worry about a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right!

Rise up this mornin,
Smiled with the risin sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin, (this is my message to you-ou-ou:)

Singin: dont worry bout a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin: dont worry (dont worry) bout a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right!

Rise up this mornin,
Smiled with the risin sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstep
Singin sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin, this is my message to you-ou-ou:

Singin: dont worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!
Every little thing gonna be all right. dont worry!
Singin: dont worry about a thing - I wont worry!
cause every little thing gonna be all right.

Singin: dont worry about a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right - I wont worry!
Singin: dont worry about a thing,
cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin: dont worry about a thing, oh no!
cause every little thing gonna be all right!