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lost, looking back on where you've came from, you achieved nothing. big leaps seemed to be like baby steps. is it this hard? so hard to step forward. you want to choose stepping forward but to what direction. still afraid of those who eyed him. to fail. moving forward makes no assurance. you stood there rock hard, refusing to everything from outside. you are there, in solitude. now, refuses to take part of what's already in there and starting to show what are you really and what do you really want. 

i'm stuck here for a while now.