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Start:	Feb 21, '08 07:00a
End:	Feb 22, '08

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still too much frustrations,

hindi na kayang ilabas ng simpleng pagwawala sa loob ng karaoke hub na kasama sila jemil, lex, chiz, tina, arwin... hindi rin kinaya ng simpleng pagdodota...

now i am cursing things just to ease up this pain... so damn frustrated...

tanginang buhay to!...

lahat lahat, nawawala sa akin kahit na yung mga bagay na gusto kong kuhain nawawala parin...

badtrip...

bwakananginamo...

hindi pa sapat ito, kung kulang pa,,, tara, square na lang tayo...

(sorry sa pag mumura...)

sobrang frustrations... need to have a decent break, siguro maglalayas muna ako???

pagdasal ninyo nasana maayos ang lahat...

badtrip talaga... simula pa nung mga panahon na hindi ko na matandaan ito...

ow men!

sabogaloids na ako!!!

so damn frustrated

i am frustrated in everything... in our house, in school, in studies... in everything..

everything from the start, everything that i gain always seems to be lost, everyone that i know... i don't already know... i hate also that i can't express what i want to express. i hate everything.... i hate. all. i hate that i can't cry when i needed to and i can't cry even if i wanted. i don't know wha't the problem in this body. i hate everyone. from our house to the school. i am so frustrated because everyone want to govern my life, everyone tells me what i will do, what will i want... everything... can't express every thing... i want to explode but my body is too stubborn to do something like that... i hate my life.... i am so frustrated in all the thing that i want to achieve because in the point of achieving it... it becomes nothing. i hate my life. i hate it.

family, only wants me too burn myself in studying. in school, everybody is teasing me... all looks fine because i am smiling... when i say my burden to them, nobody cares. all they say is something... when i run to my family, all their concern is their suffering... nobody cares... that i am now suffering too much... now, nobody is there to trust... nobody will listen to me... nobody wants to listen to me...

now i am failing in things... in school, in my dreams...a always fail. all want's to govern my life, in the point of loosing... they blame on me, all cares and all want me to what they please. in the point of loosing. nobody cares... all they do is to blame...

in prelim. i failed 2 major subjects...

 

nobody cared but only said...

 

makakabawi ka pa ... prelim  pa lang naman eh...

 

gusto nila akong bumawi pero hindi nila alam kung ano ang hirap na pinagdadaanan ko ngayon, i want to explode...

 

mas madali ninyong sabihin na madali lang ang lahat pero sa akin, all is too damn hard...

 

kung alam nyo lang... i am so damn frustrated in this life...

i want to do a change, i want to pass....

 

but im suffering too much... i am lost....

 

can someone take it all away, my frustrations, my dreams, my life... i can't stand things anymore....

pictures kila miko...

sabog ako at mapagtripan na magpicture sa fone ni miko.... sabay upload pipituran sana ang nasa sketch pad ko pero saka na lang...

magaaral pa ako sa physics 2... may quiz bukas.,.

tribu ni miso

damn frustrated... nasira ang pc ko kaya nasa computer shop ako ngayon... may tama ang aking video card kaya walang output sa monitor... kung kelan ako nagcacram sa paggawa ng assignment sa calculus...

 

now it think this is a real test of patience...

 

wish  me luck

 

sana maayos na din yung pc ko..

eccentric

life used to be lived in a simple manner. making complications makes life hard to enjoy which now destroys the simplicity of it...

    things are used and people to be loved but now. it is things that are loved and people are to be used

       making right judgement is not used to be what you think is right but what in life is right

          now  my mind is flying through the air, i wish that life can be so carefree but it has the                 sense of commitment and responsibility.

                life is really simple but sadly many people made it really hard to live upon...

                   life is a mixture of everything not anything...








life, is simple as it is.

                         but to achieve the goal

          one must work hard


                                                             one must live carelessly

             to enjoy


                                                 to appreciate

                                  live life

                                                 as if there where no tomorrow


                                                                         not afraid to live


                                       and not afraid to die...

z

life, it works on everything... based on our's life is (from my perspective from now) not having much of something but having a pinch of everything... it must no focus on only one thing, it's when someone's life topsyturby. it's not on the fame or the trophy but on friends family and non material possessions. life does not depend on winning nor loosing but a pinch of both.

live life, don't be afraid to live and mostly don't be afraid to die...

life is a pinch of everything, don't be afraid to loose because in return you will gain better than what you lost... loosing is really nothing...

maybe... sometimes...

loosing is gaining...

nakatunganga ng kalahating araw

just destroyed half a day doing nonsense... talagang non-sense kasi nakatunganga lang ako buong kalahating araw... it's bad...

the good side is that...
i realized somethings.. again...


- uniqueness... sometimes comes from a bad part which is character differences... sadly this make the world turn round... i hate this kinds of things specially when family ties are about to get destroyed just because of character differences..

- some one's dreams will be achieve not all because of hard work, determination and percieverance... just learn to let go, relax and enjoy what you are doing... that's what grown-ups forget... to loosen things abit...

-maturity... just a simple phrase to be observed....

"one must not be too young to reason and not too grown-up to dream"

- time ticks fast, just like i said... time won't go back for you but you will run after it...

- responsibilities are done in a way that a person will enjoy doing it not do be frustrated because someone just order you to do it... "kusa" hindi pusa...

- lastly... to forgive someone, the first step is the hardest part... "to forgive other... you must first forgive yourself" just like loving others...

....

pagkatapos ng mahabahabang tungangaan... naglaba ako and decided kahit na medyo hapon na na ituloy ang mga housechores...

time won't go back for you but you will run after it

turns out to be okay...

new year's bang...

unang upload ng photos... it new year... konti lang ang pics na nakuha kasi busy sa pagpapaputok... ang masayang new year sa compound

first day of the year

it's already 2008...  masaya ang pasok ng taon sa akin... ngayong araw, nagsimba kami sa church (malamang san pa kaya???)... natulog kami ng 2:30 am kaninang umaga at gumising ng 8 kaya medyo puyat... masaya ang lahat and i hope that this will last until the next new year and the next and so on... sarap ng feeling kapag nagpapaputok ka... parang care free na kahit maputulan ka ng kamay... just for the thrill...

sabi kanina sa simbahan, kaya daw hindi natutupad ang kahilingan nila sa world peace eh dahil ang mga tao eh walang pagmamahal sa buhay. appreciation of life that's what people lacks. and i think it's true... maraming nagpapalaglag, maraming pumapatay sa napakababang rason ang many more. parang walang pakialam ang ibang tao sa iba, kanyakanya. parang napakababa ng sense of living ng isang tao.

masaya ang mga bagay-bagay sa akin pero sana masaya ang lahat ng mga kakilala ko... i pray na sana eh maging maganda ang kanilang taon.. all is good... kahit na sabi sa feng shui na walang ang luck sa side ko... that's alright...i'll try to make the most out of this one.

gots no plans for the year, well nawala din yung aking paghahangad ng mga material things.. ewan ko kung bakit pero basta lang...

just want to be hapy.

happy new year ulit... and thanks for reading